Wednesday, February 18, 2009
4:20 AM....have I mentioned how much I hate MS lately? I am awake, made lunches and my hips are KILLING ME. I hate this. You know...even when I was diagnosed I never really got mad. I cried for about a half an hour and cried again when I told Mark, Todd & my Mother and from that moment I just accepted it as the hand that I was dealt but as time goes by and new symptoms pop up I am losing my positive attitude about it. The weakness in my hands and legs, constant bladder infections, changes in the way that I walk, numbness, itching and my favorite of all....nerve pain. The pain gets so bad. It is worse in my hips than in my legs but they get bad too. It's kinda like that menstrual pain that you get in your hips with cramps only worse and add a burning feeling to that. Sounds like fun, huh? I know, I know....nobody likes a whiner but I figure I have a right to the occasional pity party....it's the least that life could do.